Friday, March 14, 2008
school's starting soon. nightmares are disturbing my dreamless nights.
i had a dream. i cldnt remember what it was exactly, but in it, i flunk my alvl chinese paper or something like that. what happened wasnt really clear to me now, but the anxiety i dreamt still feels real. though i had a good few days of holidays-- relaxation time, i havent got a good night's sleep. i wld wake up arnd 8.30 every morning even though i didnt have enough sleep(8hrs). my eyes are tired, but my brain is not. damn. why am i so tensed up? why am i worried?
the weather has been weird lately. rain and shine come and go. the nights wld be freezing cold, so chilly that i slept without the fan. yesterday, i 'armed' myself before turning in. i put on a jacket, calf-length socks, leg warmers(those thick ones i had used in beijing) and hid myself under the duverts. and with that i slept till morning, didnt sweat, wadever.
today while i waited for the imm shutter bus with my sis, the sunny weather made me feel a little dizzy(my sis also felt the same). however, awhile later, it started to shower. the raindrops were huge and it'd hurt if it hits you. the weirdest of all is that the rain stopped just before we wanted to board the bus. o.o
i attempted to do math. sequence and series, partial fractions etc. so easy but more than half were wrong. well i realise i suck.
i suck i suck i suck.
True friends
11:44 PM